I haven't always been the dependable friend. I used to flake out all the time, and I would change my mind oftentimes at the last minute, while I was on my way still deciding if I wanted to go.
Now I have a lot of people who are depending on me: my best friend depends on me to get him to work, a few friends getting married depend on me to help make sure things go as planned....all this plus work responsibilities, and family requirements. There is a lot of work that goes into those things, and doing those things for people changes how I can schedule my days. It makes it hard for me to have my random days off, where I just get in the car and go. It makes it hard to make plans, because I have set things that I have to do each week, and I can't just blow those things off.
I'm not saying this is a bad thing, or that I resent it happening. What I am saying is that I have a sort of structure and stability in my life for the first time in a really long time, and that takes some getting used to.
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